“If Black Lives really Matter’s. Then Practice What You Preach!”

“If Black Lives really Matter’s. Then Practice What You Preach!”

(Let’s all do so by Example)

By Glenn Peppers

Ok my people! Com'on now. Seriously! We really need to stop shooting and killing one another out here, and posting all these video of black folks (mostly youths) beating up (or should I say, cowardly ganging upon) one another! Sure Black Lives Matter, but if you don't believe it yourself, then why should anybody else believe it! The disrespect for one another out here is just ridiculous! The foolishness I see on the local and national news is down right idiotic! Mind you, this is not just the news picking on us poor black folks living in impoverished areas of most any urban city in america. This senseless violence toward one another has become rampant! Out of control! 

Some of the stupid crap I see, hear and read about that people are doing here of late makes me think that most everybody out here has lost their minds! I know people are desperate and without, and often times denied the bare necessities like food stamps and this and that! For many people who really need it, a good many of them have been removed from some form of financial aid that once sustained them, and have had to resort to pawning or selling their belongings. For others hungry enough, the act of stealing became an option in order to survive.  

I understand where a person could be with that! especially if you’ve got children! But the senseless crimes and shootings, and the beating up and car jacking of elderly people for their purses, and loose change is complete BS! Nomadic Crimes! It’s all I've been seeing here of late, and it just doesn't make any sense! 

I feel that some of this is coming from the music that some of these youth listen to. Its almost as if it is partly a catalyst to some of this mess out here we’re all made witness to! The other day at the red light, I’m sitting next to a car blasting ALOUD some of the worse language and foul content imaginable in any rap song! I hear songs like this playing in their cars and trucks at decibels loud enough to break glass with toddlers sitting in the backseat (often times not in a baby seat). Their little ears must be on fire, as mine are, as I’m normally most times at least two cars away from these rude idiots! How unpleasant! It is unbelievable actually! 

The latest thing I’ve seen since about June of this year is these individuals who park all crooked, blasting their music, and then go into a store and leave their music playing in their vehicle at an ear spitting/bass thumping volume. As if they know that their music and song content will annoy people! Every song spews words like, “N-----g this, and F---k that! And B----h This!” All through every song. If you can in fact call these songs! 

There was one instance where I had the pleasure of pulling out of the store parking lot, just as a police cruiser was pulling in! My only regret was my not being able to stick around to see the look on that guys face when the cops were having his ride towed away! Oh yeah, he was parked in a handicapped parking space as well! 

So tell me. Is this all of what kids and young adults listen to these days? And I'm talking Black and White kids and young adults! Seriously, has this society lost its mind!

Its so sad to see the Brainwashing Matrix machine involved with the de-evolution of the black race in motion. What I’m witnessing day to day is a century’s old form of conditioning (Starting with the Willie Lynch Letter) that is much more complicated, and yet at the same time, quite simple to see; but only if one wants to see it! Believe me, the Saggin’ Pant wearing. Hip Hop/Gangster wannabe black and white youth of today doesn't want to see it! The music they listen to tells them not to see it! 

Watching some young white adults dressed in their preppy clothes, and Brad and Chad JC Penny Polo Shirts, and Shorts listening to all those obnoxiously ignorant de-evolutionary rap songs, chronicling black extinction is almost insulting! Their smart-ass smirk’s and thumb your nose look on their faces as they mock the foolishness of those songs is one that says. “Got ya!” We now own your classic music of Soul, Jazz and R&B, and we gave you This crap!” For them. Their mocking of this music is somewhat of a celebration. A victory song! Even after all these years, my people still need to know when people are laughing at them, and not with them!

Despite what is happening, more over, my people are still grand, beautiful, Inventive, talented and greatly gifted people. Yet we lack one thing that most all other races on the earth seem to cherish. And that's Unity, Loyalty and a Stick-to-itness that is un-compromised by anyone outside of their friend, family or business unit! A great lot of us lack the want and need to lift ourselves and our brothers and sisters up out of the Crab Bucket! I fear (and it is even documented) that this is a trait that precedes slavery! A trait that the european slave masters, and on up until today has capitalized on with black folks for hundreds of years! I feel sadly confident enough to say that this plan still works, even in 2015!

Especially in these last 50 to 60 years in america. We've become a people who are far too easily programmed and manipulated. Even as far as to hate ourselves, and to do the most foolish and ignorant things despite ourselves! We fall for every trend and fad that comes down the pike! Most of those trends being deadly for us. Yet we follow them just the same! 

The black male's lack of devotion (and I'm not speaking of ALL black males) to his woman and family; along with lacking a death before dishonor mentality towards any form of enslavement and injustice has placed us high on a disrespect list of people to flat out Screw Over with impunity, around the world! 

Through various modes of Media and through decades of DRUG Infestations and illegal street weapons flooding the inner cities of america; The powers that be has done a job on this generation of black youth in this recent age!... Pandoras Box door hinges are broken, and there's no closing her up ever again. The age of innocence as some of us knew it is over! 

This hellish thing done to deter, hinder, and destroy black folk effects everyone one of us who wants to live a peaceful and meaningful life on so many levels, here in america. So much so it is to the point where only God himself only knows just how badly we've been discriminated against, poisoned, experimented on, and re-programmed, and mentally altered into becoming this docile and compliant African American Entity! A non-wave-making, Just-getting-along Entity! A thing set apart from our true selves! 

A people programmed to settle for, and be satisfied with where we're at in history! Lost in limbo, yet still and forever fighting for our right to exist, well into the year 2015. Some of us are fighting almost as hard, and as desperately as our grand parents did back in 1955! Although things look as if they have changed. For many of us, things haven’t really changed much at all! We’re just all wired (or wireless) up for Facebook, Twitter and anything else HD,wi-fi, and 3G!

We have become our own end. "Brought to you By!... Yes US! We! Or in other words, Our Damned Selves!" What a beautifully underhanded and conniving way in which the european has orchestrated this well played clandestine Mind Screw! A mind screw brand of control and a means to waylay an entire race of people into simply destroying themselves! How clever a plan this was, the masterminding of a quiet annihilation of millions of people in such a slow, creeping way that most of us would not even suspect it! A plan so slick, that it barely reveals any inkling as to who, what, why or how it is all happening!... In the assistance of lessening or diminishing of said race. How much more Deliciously Diabolical can you get?

Glenn Peppers 

“Bryant Gumbel’s Son Racially Profiled by Police”

Bryant Gumbel as he appeared on the Charlie Rose Show, on PBS

“Bryant Gumbel’s Son Racially Profiled by Police”

(Proof that it can happen to anyone)

By Glenn Peppers               8-12-2015

Gumbel's Son Arrested in New York, and quickly released

As I shake my head in disgust, I had to whisper under my breath that this commentary has weight! Police Brutality is Real! Racial profiling is real! Ask Bryant Gumbel's son! This admonishment came from Bryant Gumbel himself on the PBS television show, "The Charlie Rose Show!". As you may well know, Bryant Gumbel is a man of whom the entertainment and sports world thinks highly of, speaks volumes to me! There is a serious problem here in america folks, and it is not going to just go away on its own! And to deny it, or to ignore it simply because these incidences or situations doesn't happen exclusively, or even remotely to you is foolish. 

Bradley Gumbel Arrested on theft charges, then released 

Its foolish because Racism steeped in Racial Profiling by law enforcement (or whomever) unto violence has a trickle down effect. Just like crack cocaine, and heroin or meth! Not forgetting the many other designer drugs out here trickling down into white society; making collateral damage of young and old white, so-called privileged individuals, thinking that their privileged status will somehow shield them from harm as a result. Not knowing that whomever dares to follow down that lonely path of the compartmentalized, dismantling of the human soul almost always leads to the eventual destruction of ones life as you once knew it. 

For most who’ll fall into that trap, the turn around is almost impossible! Still, They'll come a day when law enforcement Won't Need a Racial Reason to Abuse ANYONE! Red, yellow, Black, White or Brown! Just like the advent of Crack Cocaine, the influx of Heroin (be it from the 1960’s and 70’s era, or now), and Meth. As well as the many other designer Frankenstein Drugs that are making white people collateral damage. There will eventually be a trickle down effect with police brutality as well! 

They’ll soon be measures put in place and enacted where very soon it won’t matter what color you are. Law enforcement will (pretty much like they are doing right now) be able to kill and abuse whom they will! Just like Aids, Crack Cocaine and other things that started as a plague in the black communities. This abuse and rampage of murderous crimes by law enforcement will soon be infesting suburban areas! There’s already video clip incidences online as I write, where the police are beating and gunning down unarmed white and hispanic youth. Male and female! 

Those who do not see the many racial incidences occurring all round us as a problem in this country, carry on as if nothing like this could ever happen to them! “Oh this doesn’t happen to white people!” You say! See, first of all. This abuse is all done in the name of genocide and control of the black race! It is being done as punishment for america electing (twice) a black man as acting President of the United States! And also for its core reason. 

The fact that the vast majority of black people living in america are the direct descendants of Africans kidnapped and shipped to this america, and turned into slaves byway of the Trans Atlantic Slave Trade! Although blacks were deemed free. For those who did not, and do not want this to be the case, they see black folk as people without rights, without self-determination, and undeserving of liberty as it is written in the declaration of independence. To those who hate and despise blacks. We are still but  runaway property, and a burden to the system! Our only purpose for white america and its industries and domestic employment systems is for the African descendant to work for free while in captivity! 

For Bryant Gumbel to acknowledge that his son has been victim to police brutality, even in its most subtle form, is huge! Outright police brutality against blacks has become so typical, and commonplace in this country that our protest against such mistreatment has become almost non-descriptive, uninteresting news, unless people get so riled that they start to burn and loot their areas! Then and only then are black issue news worthy. This shouldn’t happen in a place that calls itself a land of the free! 

See, this is what's wrong overall! The fact that something so inhumane as the disproportionate murders of one group of individuals or people becoming commonplace! 

Bryant Gumbel has always been known for his wonderful diction and annunciation skills. Not to mention his respectable demeanor as a broadcaster. Making some blacks throughout the years criticize him, accusing him of not being Black Enough, and acting white, just because he doesn't use slang, or present himself as someone from (excuse my lack of better wording) The Ghetto! 

Personally, I like the fact that as a broadcaster, Bryant Gumbel has remained a symbol of placidity during hard times for black folks. Like he did through the LA riots back in the 1990’s! Gumbel always seemed to remain unruffled (although some criticized, loosely unconcerned) by the many eras of passing times, and media craziness! Over many decades, Bryant Gumbel has pretty much maintained a constant status of sophistication, finesse and professionalism in his career as a sports announcer, and television host! 

If this makes him a person trying to be white. I'd have to say there's a bit of Ignorance, jealously and some deep seeded personal insecurities involved in how some folks may be viewing this man called Bryant Gumbel! See, if mastering the english language, and speaking well, and presenting oneself in a skilled and accomplished manner is explicated as being white. I'd question that accusing person's reasons and rationalization as to how they intelligently came to this conclusion!  

Bryant Gumbel's acknowledgement of this issue of police brutality as being real in his life should be an eye opener to many; as Gumbel hardly ever speaks out on social issues, period!  To see and hear that Bryant Gumbel not only moved by this issue of race and prejudice in america speaks quite loudly for me, indeed! To know that Bryant Gumbel "Really Get's It" is monumental! From what I gleaned from his frank and honest acknowledgement of his son’s incident is that. “This can happen to anyone!”

Glenn Peppers    

“Equal in America?”

1963 protest for equal rights

“Equal in America?”

(The Science of Ten Steps Back)

By Glenn Peppers                                                        

7-14-2015 Updated 8-3-2015

I said it before, and I'll say it again. As long as people of color who were and are descendent's of those taken from Africa centuries ago, who live, work and remain in this country and this northern hemisphere, you must know that we will always be viewed as slaves. Former slaves, emancipated slaves, and escaped slaved. Slaves without proper passage. Slaves with great talent. Slaves who out of want to fit in, gave the world many great inventions, musical blessings, and sports icons and exploits, yielding many contributions to the american way of life. Yet and still, in essence we are Slaves in waiting once again and forever in america. Yes Slaves forever more in the eyes of many whites who see us as nothing else but a means to an end!... Free Enterprise!  And now (as far as law enforcement) see us as prey!

Black teenage girl manhandled and abused by overzealous cop at a pool party

To this day, even within our own culture, many of us carry ourselves, as slaves. We even treat each other as such! The Willie Lynch Letter and slave conditioning tactic has locked itself into place. And it is working just as he predicted it would! So much so that we now murder our own at an alarming rate. We name call one another, and treat our women and elders horribly, just like the slave masters of old did us with a crack of a whip in one hand, and a gun in the other! 

Because of modern media and its brain washing idiot box (the television) and all the musical-mind-drone programs, our children now speak and boast the broken dialect of the slaves of old, minus any kind of articulate vocabulary, such as that of Frederick Douglas. All the while thinking trend-wise what they’re doing is something smart!

Unaware African Man watching the slave ships approaching 

During slavery times, Slaves were not allowed to read or write. So, just like in times of old, once again, because of an intentionally dumbed-down public school system (and other tactics) over the many years and decades. Broken english, and Slave-Speak is now Chic for many black youth! 

Only we (or should I say ‘some’ of us) are able to understand just what it is most of our youth are saying to one another, as they throw gang signs, speed-rap and curse and belittle some of the women in their songs and videos; as well as their mothers and children, in the process. 

No matter what is done to us, we demand not our freedom or respect from those who oppress us. Not even unto death as other races do! We mainly just do what it takes to Get Along in society; always seeking acceptance. Not wanting to make waves! There are those among us who are always shuffling backwards! And until we stand together and unite in simple self-respect and honor, and say, "Freedom or Die!" We the descendent's of the slaves of africa will always be run-over, disrespected and dead last, always frozen out, lied to and deceived until one day we’er eventually eradicated! 

Unknown white man who hunted down and killed a black child child for sport 

As a people we’re apparently still stuck in an 1860’s slave mentality mode! The only difference is some of us carry personal electronic devices, and we just dress better than some of our slave predecessors! Well, at least some of us do. Those who are inclined to pull their pants up around their waste, and at least dress appropriately for whatever occasion, seem to be far and few between these days! 

In America, as a people, we will never be allowed to foster or set up a sound and successful infrastructure within the black community, or command our own localities in which commerce flows between our own people; and yet forthwith support our city, state and local government in which we live. 

We are not allowed to bring about a thriving community, contributing to the american way of life, with proud citizenry, and subdivisions in local areas, whereas we can show solidarity to america! Some of us are only conditioned (and Red Lined) out of this idea, and encouraged and herded into living in low income drug infested, blighted areas where eventually because they’ve become minus’ed out of the system. Therefore resorting to stealing in order to survive, and subsequently succumbing to the evil of the streets committing murders and selling drugs! Feeding off our young, and slowly destroy themselves, while quietly becoming a passing phase through laws passed to take everything from you. To a stark Gentrificationing process. One that further, and completely systematically minuses you out of the american dream equation! slowly but surly. Like the hands of a clock!

Though flattering and amusing, a great lot of those great great grand children of those who enslaved our ancestors do not require, nor do they want our citizenship or loyalty to any real degree. They only want our downtrodden subservience, and the sweat off our backs, and corralling of our minds! We are only seen as america’s whipping poles. Nothing more! 

For we are only just allowed to live here, in america in lieu of their itching hope, anticipation and possibility that slavery will one day be re-instated; and rebooted in the guise of something more much more modern than the antebellum version. Yet just as confining and controlling! The Prison Pipeline being one of those ways to triumph for whites who have long awaited this goal of completion for people of color! 

Martin Luther King abused by white men during a protest

From the start, our victories were designed to be few and at best, fleeting. And always fashioned so that in time, eventually all gains made would in part, or completely would be altered or eventually reneged upon! The voters rights, and some of our civil rights for example! They set an old timey Uncle Tom sellout up in the supreme court to be the salt in the wound for this act! Those freedoms granted us were and are just cosmetic, and are only road repair asphalt patches that will one day come loose and fall apart somewhere down the road aways! 

Woman watches as the police drag her husband down the street like an animal

The children and great great great grandchildren of slaves in america will never be looked upon as equals in a country that for centuries has showered us with constant murders and abuses of every kind. From beatings, public beatings, family separations, woodblock auctions, public hangings, and an outright total disrespect toward black people as human beings. 

Young Black Man beaten into a coma by Police

Not to mention a hellish Machiavellian quandary of other endless devilish cruelties set against us that are far too many to note in their entirety! Refining and locking in the sad science of what I call, “Ten Steps Back!” For every advancement that black people made here in america, there seems to always be a ten step back retraction in gains. No matter what we do! 

When this retraction comes, If it does not come from without. It is sure to come from within! Right within your midst and circle! The supposed Willie Lynch Letter theory and hypothesis has proven that! One true fact is this. 

Whenever we do not stand up for ourselves, we surly lose! There has to be that point where one has to say, “Enough is enough!”

As long as the descendent's of Africa who were stolen from our homeland live, work and exist here in America among those who enslaved us, there will never be a moment’s peace for us here! Yet know simultaneously that not all white people feel this way, nor do they want us looked upon and treated as such; yet and still, there are those who are ancestors of those who enslaved us who in their hearts of hearts never wanted us to know true freedom, and self-respect. 

Ruth Tinsely 58 years old, arrested for protesting at a supermarket

Nor do they want us to ever know equality, for they feel superior to not only black people, but many other citizens of the earth! Our steps are shadowed, and our walk will be hampered as long as superiority and imperialism exist against us in america! 

In conclusion, and simply put. How can we expect anyone to respect us when we do not respect ourselves? For in their eyes, our not doing so shows them that we are weak and will always cower and shake in fear, and not act! The mindset is that we should just not make waves, and just “Get Along!” 

How can this ever truly happen when to those who mean us harm, in their eyes, we're still their property in slave runaway mode! Yet in this modern age most of us cannot seem to wrap our minds around such a though! And still the question arises! So you want to be thought of as Equal?

Well then I ask you. Who in this world thinks of their property and possessions as something equal unto to themselves? No one!

If we are to live in America, we must always know the eternal truth in that, we are not any man’s property, and what has and is currently being done to us was and is still wrong!

Beautiful Black Woman Representational of Mother Africa

We are the descendant's of Mother Africa. The very cradle of civilization! Truth be told, we are the apple of God’s eye! We’re beautiful and forever long suffering people, faithful and full of knowledge! Yet peace is the core of our existence. Normally we hath not a murderous spirit! Thus why we were taken, and used as slaves! Our inner strength and Godly gifts set us apart from those who greatly envy us enough to want to be us, and yet hate us enough to want to kill us at the same time! 

Once we come to know our King and Queenly birthright, and place with the creator of the universe; these steps will not be hampered any longer, no matter what they do to us. It will be at that time when no one will be able to take those steps from us ever again! 

By Glenn Peppers

Welcome to the Real World, Rachel Dolezal

Rachel Doleal

“Welcome to the Real World, Rachel DolezaL”

(The Real World of being Black)

By Glenn Peppers                                                            July 22, 2015

Let me start out by saying, Rachel! My dear Rachel Dolezal. You did say that you identified with being black, didn't you? Oh I get it. Up until recently, you only identified with just some of the most pleasant parts of being black! 

Oh ok, now I get it! All of a sudden, Rachel Dolezal is entering into the other half of being black. The Real World of being Black! The world of Discrimination, Ostracization, Oppression, Racial Profiling (despite how good of a person you are). You're experiencing Segregation, Denial of Advancement. And of course, Denial from whites that you are even being discriminated against, and left out of the equation. 

You never really had a clue about what it is like to be black, did you? I mean, Really be Black! Of course not! Being black means facing the very real possibility of Police brutality, and of course, in your case, Job Discrimination, just to name a very few things! Rachel, maybe now you know that being black isn't all about braids, attitude and fashion trends. Being black carries a burden inside that comes with 500 years of ancestral oppression burned deep into your soul! You couldn’t possibly relate to this haunting feeling! 

This ancestral oppressed burden brings along with it a strange connection that runs deeper than any surface attitude or ethnic appearance that the world could ever comprehend! Being black isn't some Pop Culture fad drenched in Motown music and Hip Hop! Being black isn't about all the sellout shuckin' and jivin' and cooning you see and hear black folks do in media who know nothing about why they act the way they do, reducing our culture and accomplishments by decades by what they reflect on TV and in our music now days!

Sellout negative images of black women on Reality TV

Being black isn't about black folk singing and moonwalking! Being black is not about fake reality TV shows, and hair weaves and twerking! Being black runs deeper than any thing you can imagine a people to be who were once considered kings and queens in their own land of Africa. Being black means that you and your kind (byway of slavery and captivity and centuries of conditioning) have been reduced down to mere pawns on a european chessboard of power, commerce, and subjugation onto human degradation! My dear Rachel, in claiming to be black, you have jumped from the fire into the frying pan! Its gettin' a lil' hot in the kitchen, huh Rachel! 

So hot in fact that maybe now I’m betting that you'll be wanting to shed the braids and lose the tan about now! Maybe now you'll take some of the attitude out of your voice as you over emphasize what you think are, real black gestures, and real black emotions in order to fit in! Break out your perfect diction and annunciation Rachel, and lose the inner city swag that you've grown accustom to putting on. For it was all an illusion! Believe me, you were only playing at being black! Your european soul and roots tell a far different story about you.

In my best Hannibal Lecter voice I say, "Run Rachel Dolezal! Now run, and fly, far far away! Go back to your nice clean café tables in suburbia, and your world totally lacking of any corporate glass ceilings, and employment opportunity barriers based on skin color! Run dear Rachel, and feel free to drive anywhere in these continental United States cities under the guise of, Rachel Dolezal, White Woman! Free and proud! For in doing so, you'll go about your way virtually unbothered from sea to shinning sea!" 

I have no doubt that you'll find work when you awaken and eventually drift back across the tracks of your mind. Awaken Rachel Doleza, and reconnect with who you really are! I have no doubt that wherever you end up, you'll be accepted by your kind! You'll be hired to do whatever it is you want to do in this great big world that your kind control! Signpost ahead! What does it read? "Thank you Rachel Dolezal for visiting Africa-Ville! Hope you enjoyed your stay!" 

As you continue driving, you see another sign ahead. It says, "Welcome Rachel Dolezal! You are now entering Reality-Ville! We've been waiting for you!"

Glenn Peppers     

“William H. Cosby’s Admittance to Guilt”

Dr. William Henry Cosby

“William H. Cosby’s Admittance of Guilt”

By Glenn Peppers       7-8-2015

(The Rusty Nail in the Coffin of his Career)

I just saw a news report on Bill Cosby this afternoon, and his admitting on court transcript of purchasing Quaaludes (a tranquilizer and mood drug), and giving them to unsuspecting women in order to have sex with them. hearing this has set a sad tone and mood in me today! Right about now I am heartbroken! As are many people who’ve come along through the 1960's, 70's and 80's and even the 1990's with Bill Cosby. People from my generation grew up with him, admired him, and loved his work and accomplishments since the early to middle 1960’s! 

At first, I thought this whole thing of his raping and abusing this seemingly ridiculous amount of women was all a scam in order to bring down this powerfully successful, and wealthy black man who changed the landscape of television in america just after the civil rights era, and the world by breaking the color line (and on NBC at that). 

Then I thought to myself. All this is being done in effort to bring down a man who was, and still may be in the midst of putting together a Bill Cosby Television Production Company that would rival that of Oprah Winfrey and the Ted Turner’s Empire has got going. I kept thinking to myself about all these women coming out of the woodwork, seemingly out of nowhere, and at breakneck speed! “Why such an onslaught, and emergence as if all this had just happened?” 

There was and still is an odd eagerness about all this that still bothers me, despite Cosby’s off handed admission or confession in a deposition done years ago. One where he admits to buying quaaludes and using them as a date rape drug!  As far as the public, and possibly many of his colleagues knew, Cosby seemed to have always maintained class and dignity, and never showed any sign of being the type of person who’d take advantage of anyone! Let alone an unconscious woman! The only thing we all knew about Bill Cosby in our world is that he had always giving us some pretty interesting and endearing humor, and positive images for and of black people, and for the rest of the world! 

Cosby was the first black man on television that I saw as a child who wasn't an embarrassing stereotypical clown or a buffoon! He was Chet Kincade, high school coach, and physical education teacher on the Bill Cosby Show in 1969. Before that, he was Scotty on I SPY! And he was very cool on that TV show! He and Robert Culp were partners and equals on the show. Bill Cosby was never anybody's butler or a slang talkin' Jim Crow throwback of what bigoted hollywood has always wanted black people to be viewed and depicted as! Bill Cosby had exuded class and intelligence. And it showed! 

Cosby made the whole idea of black youth making collage their aspiration seem pretty darn cool! He even helped create a television show to that effect. "A Different World!" Regardless of his shortcomings, this television show still inspires black youth to go to collage; and expressly encourages them to try and attend traditionally black collage campus like, Spellman and Morehouse.

I guess what was and is so heartbreaking and disappointing to me this day was the smirky attitudes and half sniggly looks of victory some of the newscasters and other broadcasters and commentators had on their faces as they conveyed this news. Some of them intently imparted an air and a look that clearly said, "We’ve Got Him!" Not Bill Cosby the Rapist or Bill Cosby the Abuser, or Bill Cosby the Potion Pusher to unsuspecting young women. But “We’ve Got Bill Cosby” that “Damned Uppity N----R!" 

From channel to channel, some of them seemed to actually revel in this once well loved man’s hard tumbling down that long bumpy ladder of shame into dishonor, humiliation and disgrace! A man who some of them clearly they never liked all along, but only tolerated throughout the years! So, how many more black people of legend in our midst do some of our most popular, and powerful media facilitators sit back and laugh and joke with other distinct black people of renown, yet hate their guts, and lay in wait for their public demise? Hmm, I wonder! 

Self admission is quite tangible evidence! Its undeniable! In admitting the purchasing of knockout type drugs for the purpose of putting aspiring actresses and models unconscious in order to have sex with them, Cosby planted a firm Rusty Nail in his career coffin! Imagine, all those years and decades of positive works and accomplishments, gone! How does one live with something like that? For that matter, how did he live with what he did to all those young women, for all those years? Did he ever give any thought as to how such an experience could have ruined their lives? 

The thought makes me tremendously sad. Yet I'd rather he admit to these horrible things and man up to them, then for him to try and carry on as if nothing had ever happened at all, and fool-heartedly try to make us think of him in an endearing way! My heart would never let me do that, knowing what he had done! 

So I guess I’ve resigned myself to the fact that, life goes on! Heroes fall, as younger modern day heroes gain acceptance, fame and fortune, and then one day, they too will become the slick on the bottom of hollywood's shoe that they’ll soon want to scrape off! Like so many others who have broken my heart in modern media, in recent times, I am so over them in that, I'm learning much better at how to see the hero in me! And even then I’ve had to learn not to harbor unrealistic expectations concerning myself, because I too am human! 

Like any of you, I have faults and cockamamie shortcomings, and I just might not be the person (in your eyes) that YOU may think I am or should be. Yep, news flash folks!... We all have shortcomings that would shame us terribly! The only difference is, the whole world isn't viewing our lives coming apart at the seams, under the microscope of a TMZ /ET tabloid world; and on 24 news outlets like CNN, and MSNBC, etc!

So, where do I (we) go from here? Where does Doctor Bill Cosby go from here? Where will all those damaged victims of his go from here? Hopefully through some kind of therapy or healing process! Maybe Cosby’s strange admittance of guilt is now some form of closure for them and himself. Sure they're angry. Heck I am angry too! For that matter, I think we're all angry, anybody whose enjoyed Cosby’s work in any way over these many years! 

Come to think of it! Given our lifetime of love and devotion. We (the many fans of Bill Cosby) have been abused as well! In a sense, Cosby has ravaged the minds of all those who loved him! In a manner of speaking, he's taken advantage of our gullible nature to love those wonderfully colorful images he’s painted for us! We’re victims too in that we are prey to the illusions and images we see on our TV screens, and in most all modern audio and video media that we see and hear everyday. And that illusion is that, rich, beautiful and talented people on TV, the record business, the movies and in sports are PERFECT People! There is no such thing!

Knowingly or not, Cosby played us all for fools by portraying this wholesome, Jello Pudding Pop/Everybody's Dad who (as he said on one of his albums) let's his own children eat cake for Breakfast kinda guy. When all the while he was wrestling with a terrible demonic style Jekyll & Hyde persona, lurking in the shadows of his mind, going, Hey, hey, hey! Fooling the hell out of all of us!

And the thing I find saddest for all his fans in dealing with the memory, and the very idea of Bill Cosby the abuser, here and now is this; There's nothing illegal what he did to us! There is nothing illegal in pulling at our heart strings, and our emotions through comedy, or producing great television shows and movies, or having an infectious personality on talk shows, and in concert and on funny comedy albums. So our long distance Mind Screw’ed hearts doesn't get a chance at any legal closure, or get a trial against Bill Cosby for breaking our hearts. This inner hurt will have to be something that we'll have to resolve within ourselves! I’ve said it many many times before. A quote by John Lennon. “Aspire not to meet your idols, for they’ll always disappoint you!” I can’t express to you how true this saying is!

As I mentioned, I have rediscovered the hero within me! There’s a song by the English 1980’s punk rock band, Spandau Ballet that comes to mind. The song, "GOLD!" Part of the Lyrics are as follows!...

“GOLD”

“Gold (gold) 

Always believe in your soul 

You've got the power to know 

You're indestructible 

Always believe in, that you are 

Gold (gold)” 

One good thing has come out of this for me since this first came to light months ago. There comes a strange empowerment through the pain of losing a hero (or heroes)! It brings you back down to basics! It puts you in touch with self! You will then find that when you love God and yourself, you’re indestructible! Something I’ve actually known all along, but sadly had to be reminded of it! When you get to this point, this is where you are supposed to be in life! In knowing this truth, there will be nothing you can’t do! There should be no more important elements in your life than, God the creator who fashioned you. Your family and of course yourself! 

So my mission is simple. I will pray for healing in this moment! Healing for all those who were abused by Bill Cosby, and for Bill Cosby himself. You can only pray for a man who has in his lifetime gained the whole world, and in his twilight years, stands a chance of losing his mortal soul! I say Let the healing start, for everyone! 

By Glenn Peppers 7-8-2015